Changes

The last time I was here I talked of two majors things in my life that were challenging me. This is no longer the case, I find myself in a struggle that most know.

As far as the therapy goes, everything is well. Learning to deal with the past and that I am not a complete disaster because of someone else's actions. There are some parts tha molded me to be a better person.

The relationship is also well despite the upcoming next paragraph of new problem in my life. Matter of fact last Saturday she took me to a place for great photos, I took well over 200. Last night she said something that not only might help me over my fear of water, but will probably be my mantra to get over it. I find love has suited me well.

The new thing in my life is my son has moved in to my one bedroom apartment. It seems he has very violent reactions to his sister and mother. His mother was married after me to a man who abused her. So it's understandable why she can't handle it. The problem is that for a long time now I have been the easy-going parent and quite frankly, I was very comfortable with that. Now that I have lost my living room, couch and have had to move things around for I can stay up late. Now it seems his disrespectfulness at school, that I used to think was humorous, has come down on me. This is not suiting me well. Matter of fact I am losing sleep on knowing how to deal with this thing that I know parents have figures out already. I also know if he doesn't straighten up, our relationship is going to change. That is something I really am not ready to deal with.